he got me...
just in the first two sentences
exactly how i have been feeling.
i keep going
There are issues that beg for attention, books it seems important to read, and works of art to be seen. But what of all this truly deserves your time?
so overwhelming sometimes.
Start by not allowing these people and issues to possess you. As long as you think that you need them to be yourself, you are not really free. Much of their urgency comes from your own need to be accepted and affirmed. You have to keep going back to the source: God's love for you.
& that's just it right?
for the past year or so
i have been writing that
& thinking it
& saying it over & over
'it's all about love'
love & wanting to be loved.
love & wanting to love.
& the connection that comes with it.
but that's not exactly what this passage is about for me today.
more reading into my heart:
In many ways, you still want to set your own agenda. You act as if you have to choose among many things, which all seem equally important. But you have not fully surrendered yourself to God's guidance. You keep fighting with God over who is in control. Give your agenda to God. Keep saying, 'Your will be done, not mine.' Give every part of your heart and your time to God and let God tell you what to do, where to go, when and how to respond.
& then this
God does not want you to destroy yourself. Exhaustion, burnout, and depression are not signs that you are doing God's will. God is gentle and loving. God desires to give you a deep sense of safety in God's love. Once you have allowed yourself to experience that love fully, you will be better able to discern who you are being sent to in God's name. (And when).
full (in a bad way)
is not how i'm supposed to feel?
& as i read the words again
this song came into my head
Lord, I offer my life to you(click here to hear it)
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life
as the sun rose up behind me
& let it go
all of it.
"It is not easy to give your agenda to God. But the more you do so, the more 'clock time' becomes 'God's time', and God's time is always the fullness of time."
everything in italics
'The Inner Voice Of Love"
by Henri Nouwen
a book that was given to me by my sweet friend, rachael:)
& it is so good...
i wish i could buy one for each of you
that last smiley face was in italics
(which seems to be following me)
it's a cute little side smile isn't it?