today i am missing you
like i do pretty much everyday
& have everyday for the past twelve years
(i know! it doesn't seem that long does it? or does it to you?
i always wonder about that...)
i miss all of the same things & sometimes new things pop into my head & i love that...
& sometimes brian will bring something up about you that i had forgotten & i love that, too.
i love that you guys knew each other...
(sure wish you had seen us get married, though, it was pretty great :)
lately though in addition to thinking about all of the things that i miss about you, i have been thinking about all of the things that you have missed...
oh my goodness, mom!
there are so many things you have missed...
i get dizzy even thinking about it...
but there are two things that stand out in my mind so huge that i'm just going to mention them here...
(large in scale, small in emotional significance)
oh my goodness, mom
i can't believe you never got to see this thing
it is amazing
i wonder what sites you would have bookmarked
i'm sure you would have an ipod
& you would do the cool nike+ thing that brian does
to track & chart all of your runs...
(you would be proud of him & his running...)
& i bet you would be on facebook
connecting with friends all over the place
from high school & college & mission trips...
it is just so odd to think that something
that pretty much everyone i know
(including your mother :)
uses every single day
is something you never even knew about...
(small in scale, HUGE in emotional significance)
oh my goodness, mom
you would just be so amazed...
so in love.
just thinking about the fact that you have never
held any of them is
a crime to me.
worse than a crime.
my kids are just great
so funny & always saying the funniest things & learning so much every day.
Q is always going at 100 miles an hour & flipping over things & climbing things
unless he's doing legos (excuse me, bionicles) or homework...
& miss m who is the mommy to every stuffed animal who ever came within her grasp...
she's so sweet, as long as you do things exactly the way she tells you to :)
they would charm you from the get go & oh, how they would love you!
so sad about what all three of you have missed.
& like i said
my kids are great
you would not believe kate's boys...
you just want to hug them,
kiss them, eat their toes
& stare at them for hours
all at the same time...
they are incredible!
the cutest faces...
just sweet as can be
with rosy cheeks & big smiles!
they look so much alike but they each have their own distinct personalities, of course...
crawling all around, exploring pulling themselves up on furniture
they are just amazing...
(& kate is doing such a great job...
i know this comes as no surprise to you:)
so there are the two big things...
not really related to each other at all but things i think about sometimes as i'm thinking about you
i love you, mom.
missing you & what you've missed...